Time to go...

Well! Three months have passed since I am in Goa but now it is time to return To Auroville. I am not going to look back to take stock, but look ahead. The business that brought me to Goa has not ended- it has not in my entire lifetime so far- and I was not expecting to finish it in three months. yet, some clarity has been my gain on issues which were only confused and foggy earlier. Yet again, life has given me that chance to make a claim, go for the kill, or, FORGIVE. Forgiving comes easier to me. But that is hardly why one must forgive. I choose to forgive because the choice is money against man. Man is brother (in this case literally!), and I will not but choose brother. I am harassed with the Geeta and Krishna and Mahabharata. But I can not be Arjuna. I shall not be Arjuna. When I further look at it as The choice offered to me to become Arjuna, the ultimate Bhakta of the Lord, and whatever lakhs or crores or aukshinnies of glory, the thing gets very tempting but then I say, 'Hay Krishna, I do not want to be your SUPREME bhakta, just let my brother live a bit more...' What can He do then? Smile? Throw up His hands in disgust and walk away from me? Hell no, for He is Lord. He can not exist without me. He is my lover. He is the servant of love. And that is my gain. I do not want to BE Arjuna- that is a part of His Maya. I AM He for I can not BUT forgive. Please note that 'He' above is spelt with a capital H. It refers to the Lord and not my brother.