Wednesday, May 8

Man who quotes Shakespeare from his shattered memory



Collin Major rode his two-wheeler on the east-coast highway that connects the filthy metropolis of Madras to the insular territory,  Pondicherry when he was hit by a passing truck. One day after the accident I heard about it. It was gruesome just to hear;  it must have been terrible!

They said, Ines found him lying by the side of the road in blood, unconscious, looking quite dead, his hand tossed somewhere in the middle of the busy road. People saw him, they saw his hand and his body and all that blood but not one came to help. They left this foreigner to die for all they cared, willing not to get involved (but I imagine most of them prayed in their minds and pitied without actually helping.) They said his right hand was severed from the joint at the elbow. Then Ines was passing by, going to the petrol pump, next to which there is a wine shop, three kilometers from the scene where Collin Major met with the accident. Collin did not die; I wish he had…but please, do not get me wrong.

I knew him briefly before he wrote a review about the Tempest – Shakespeare’s Tempest – that we produced. I had played Caliban and Collin had written quite an insightful review about the play in general but he had praised Caliban quite above the rest of the cast.

They said that Ines stopped and called for help after collecting herself and Collin’s arm. She called a taxi and rushed Collin to a hospital. The specialist was in and he was confident that the hand could be reattached. He was hopeful that it might even function again, slowly and after lengthy physiotherapy. The need of the moment was to open Collin up, and all agreed, for his head too had received much impact from the truck’s massive velocity. The doc was hoping that his patient would come to after the surgery. Only then could he determine whether there was any memory loss and brain damage. Collin was in coma for some days.

The operation conducted, the severed arm reattached, yet Collin was not the Collin people knew. That, even as he lay in the hospital bed, comatose, with eyes closed like an unwrapped mummy. Much blood-loss had made him pallid; he looked rain- soaked thin and white.

Eventually he came round and they let him come home. The prognosis was that he had lost much of his memory. T o me the real loss was that Collin lost his hand. He was a writer. He wrote books and he wrote poems and he drank whiskey with that hand. Mr. Major was a major maverick, a bohemian to boot who wanted to see a better society. He wrote in order to influence a change and to me losing a hand for a writer was like losing the gun in the face of artillery from the other side. To an unflattering writer everything is the other side.

After almost one year Collin Major was seen going for walks, always aided by a team that was formed to look after him. He had decided to stay. He had decided neither to go back to France where he had an apartment, nor return to the USA , his home country.

I noticed the effort he had to make in order to drag his inert side as he walked. He lugged his whole right side to make a step and then putting the weight on the damaged limbs as the good side helped to drag him forward, one step at a time, and his hand hung almost unnecessarily. It is quite painful to see him so. He seems cheerful though, as if nothing had happened to him and that too hurts a bit. The boys who help him about joke with him, rather amused that his conversations are incongruous or even silly. He seems amused that they are amused and his face crinkles. With time Collin has lost his tone, the tone of his muscle and he speaks as if his tongue ran amok in his mouth, often dashing quite visibly on his teeth and lips. What he says is unclear but you let it pass because it is painful to make him repeat it. The accident has made him gregarious. While he was whole he was a loner, perhaps more shy than a loner, for he did enjoy talking quietly. I sit with him by the road-side tea shack and we converse and smoke. Collin talks and I listen. He was a big smoker then; now he seems only to smoke. A living man must do something to ward off boredom which looks to eat him up.

On the first couple of occasions Collin seemed to have difficulty registering me but now he greets me. Then invariably our one way conversation broaches on Shakespeare and Collin quotes his sonnets and mentions their numbers (!) or lines from many of his plays and says which play it is in. Wow! The man must have read Shakespeare so avidly that although very often he seems quite forgetful of himself, although the accident wiped away much of his memory, Shakespeare is saved indelibly on his chip and I wonder whether it is the power of the bard’s language or the power of Collin’s love for the bard that, after a major, almost fatal accident, this man remembers  William Shakespeare.

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