A friend has posted a snap of his 19 years old oil brush on instagram. I liked that. Brushes are so there with you when you want them that we hardly notice them. We take them for objects. Inanimate, lifeless objects.
Brushes for certain have personalities. I feel they start living with us just as other living beings.
We name pets. Pets don't speak. They don't all work for us. Some are great companions. We load our cats and dogs with our tensions sometimes. We provide then with food and
medication and we bathe them, In short, we care for them.
But we take care of brushes. No, we don't provide them with food or medicine. After every painting session we wash them, dry them and put them away. Yet we don't name them. Why?
I had names for my brushes when I used to paint more regularly. Now my paints are drying in their tubes. My Dippers have gathered dust and animal hair (my own hair and my girlfriends also must be stuck there!)
Seeing that pic of my friend's brush I remembered some of them. I was fond of one, a sable hair #5, a white bodied, well behaved darling! He was
'Gupta '. Gupta, the brush. I used to talk to him sometimes. Mostly about painting but also about sex. I think he liked sex talk.
Now all are gone! Where, how, I have no idea. When I stopped painting they just disappeared.
Now I have 3-4 left. I have plugged the drain hole of my built-in room with one fellow. I remember only his name. Tagadu. He is a strong, thick oil brush with a long body.
Today I became aware of their existence. All these years they had ceased to exist for me...
I don't deserve to be a painter!